Praying Through Pain: Faith When It Feels Impossible
In December of 2023, I knew something had to change.
I had gained a lot of weight—not just physically, but spiritually, emotionally, mentally. I was carrying heaviness everywhere I went. I had spent so many days lying in bed, trapped in a cycle of depression, isolation, and grief. I missed family events. I missed time with my children. I missed living. And as much as I wanted to feel better, I couldn’t pick myself up.
I was stuck in a pit, and I knew there was only One who could pull me out.
The Shift: Turning to Jesus in My Lowest Place
I made a decision—not out of motivation or strength, but out of desperation. I needed Jesus to intervene, to carry me, to heal me. I knew He was the only One who truly could.
That’s when I found a book called The 40-Day Sugar Fast. It seemed like a health tool, and it was—but for me, it became a spiritual turning point. It wasn’t just about sugar. It was about surrender. Every time I wanted something sweet, I turned to the sweetness of God instead. That fast became the first step on a healing journey—for my body, yes, but even more so for my soul.
I Learned to Pray—For Real
Before this season, prayer felt hard. Distant. Out of reach. I didn’t always have the words. I didn’t know what to say when my heart was so heavy.
But I kept showing up anyway. One breath at a time. One word at a time. Some prayers were full of praise. Others were just “Help me, Lord.”
And slowly, something changed.
I didn’t just learn how to pray—I learned what it meant to live in prayerful dependence. I learned to put on the armor of God, to declare truth over my life, to fight back against the lies of depression and defeat with the Word of God.
Faith When It Feels Impossible
Faith doesn’t always look like shouting hallelujah from a mountaintop. Sometimes it’s whispering Jesus’ name when you’re curled up in bed. Sometimes it’s opening your Bible when you’d rather pull the covers over your head. Sometimes it’s crying while you pray—because the pain is real, but so is hope.
That’s what I discovered in that quiet place:
Even when faith feels impossible, Jesus is still faithful.
Becoming Rooted in Christ
As I kept walking this path, I dove deeper into God’s Word. I read books about Jesus, about prayer, about how to raise children who are rooted in faith. I learned that being a follower of Christ isn’t just about believing—it’s about surrender, obedience, trust.
It’s about waking up each morning, thanking God for another day, and choosing to spend time with Him before anything else.
Now, my mornings begin with devotionals and prayer. That time with the Lord is sacred to me. It centers me. It reminds me that I am not alone, not forgotten, not finished.
I Am Still Becoming
I’m still on this journey. Some days are beautiful. Others are messy. But every day, I’m reminded that Jesus is the most important thing in my life—and He’s the reason I can still grow, still heal, still hope.
If you're in a season of silence, pain, or confusion… keep praying. Even if it feels impossible. Especially then.
Because Jesus will meet you right where you are. He does it countless timesAnd He will carry you forward.
“The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.” – Psalm 34:18
